It Never Seems Like Enough

How is it that no matter how or how much I study for a test, it never seems like enough? Crazy. I have an algebra exam tomorrow and I'm dreading it. I feel like I can't do anything, it's awful. I know how to do almost everything, but once I take a test, a lot of it flies away, my confidence plummets and I feel like I let people down. It's times like these where I think I'm crazy for considering Precalc. Oh yeah.

I don't know if I've mentioned it, but I'm considering taking Precalculus in the fall, and Calculus I in the Spring. Why? Because I don't want to take the liberal arts oriented math class anymore, I'm not sure that I want to take Finite Math (the class you take after College Algebra), and I think I want to try going a more challenging route now that I'm getting a *little* better at math (though not spectacular. But then again, I'm not really spectacular at anything :-/). Plus, my current teacher is teaching Precalc and typically Calc I is taught by professors who are supposed to be (or are) really good. Main thing that's stopping me (besides occasional self-doubts): That people will think I'm crazy. Heck, I probably am crazy. My longtime reputation as a math hater (which may or may not be crumbling) has been well known among all my peers, relatives and acquaintances. I've struggled for so long and if I go on the road towards Calculus, the road will be long, time-consuming and difficult. But it would be worth it, right? I don't think many others would share my point of view, though. I'd probably get many odd comments about it....

Oh, what am I saying? I need to grow up and stop caring about what other people think. It's so bad. So petty. I just need to evaluate whether I truly want to take Precalc then Calc I or not.

But do you know what I REALLY need? To stop typing and get some final studying in before bed.

From the Realm of Randomness,

Ashley